1st July 2021

 Oh yeah

A whole year and a half has gone by since i last wrote here.

I'm not sorry for it, i've been busy with living situations, migrating, being sad, or more likely taking care of baby I. 

He's just turned 1 this past June, and I'm currently in my first official day of Stay Home Notice (SHN) in Singapore. 

I know, the last update i was also in Singapore, but for the past 6 months, I've been in the UK with Maalik and his parents. 

Its the 3rd day without him, i flew at 12pm on the 29th from Manchester, landed at 2pm in Frankfurt...and then i had a 7 hour layover with a 1 year old, )alone) and finally we flew off at 10pm for Singapore.

Alhamdulillah Ilyas was easy during the flight, he just slept most of the time. The beginning of the flight was awful, and im too lazy to type it all out but its a good thing i did!: 

But yeah, spending 6 months together with Maalik and then suddenly..not having him is hard. 

It really is.

I've been trying to process my feelings by writing as an outlet to get it out. Ignore the dates bc i had no data when i was writing it, so it all sent at 1 go hahah

I've been getting tough, but luckily ilyas' sleep schedule is pretty much back to normal now. Mine as well is more or less back to normal, just slept late at 2.40am but he woke up at 8am like normal, which is nice, and he's having his afternoon nap from 11-1.

I may have a nap too, just sleep the days away.